yo, what's up? im gonna let yall in on a little secret: i've actually been having a lot of trouble feeling proud of my art for a while. even though i left social media i still got this little asshole in the back of my mind telling me i have to post constantly and rush out all the art i make. ironically tho the complete lack of motivation means that as im shitting these drawings out, im also only spending like, 5 minutes on them at a time, so it takes forever to get them done. so, there's very few pieces i've made lately that i actually can say i enjoy (since around mid 2024 but especially early 2025 is when i started feeling extra terrible about my art). without getting too whiny about it here, even with me significantly slowing down how much i post, it doesnt feel like enough to bring back the passion i once had for art. its not the subject matter or even the quality of the art itself, its 100% the mindset i have when i go into making art thats been draining me and making it really hard for me to actually enjoy anything i create. like, theres just so much in my gallery that i would've deleted by now if i weren't preserving all my art online because i hate it so much entirely on the basis that i have no idea what the hell was going on in my mind when i shat it out just for the sake of having something to post that week. SO HERES WHAT WE'RE GONNA DO ABOUT IT, OKAY? instead of complaining and whining like a little bitch baby about how art doesn't feel fun anymore, i'm gonna just, stop posting stuff the moment its finished. instead i'll draw throughout the week, and on either friday or the weekend idfk yet, i'll post a small dump of whatever i finished that i think is worth sharing. i've had ideas of what direction i want my art to go in but shitting stuff out with no passion is not gonna get me there. so its all gonna stay private and personal unless i think it deserves to be posted. so yes posting will be just as if not More infrequent than before but i think that what DOES get posted will be a whole fuckton better than what you've been seeing from me so far this year. ive already somewhat been doing this and i think its working like i think my last 2 pieces are a massive jump up from what ive been posting. so we're gonna go even harder into it. not only will i only be posting the stuff i actually WANT people to see but i think it will just generally start to show more in my art that im having fun and making stuff that actually speaks to me and all that pretentious junk. cuz i think you can definitely tell just by Looking At It when i couldnt give less of a shit about making art. and i do NOT wanna keep being a whiner about it i wanna actually do something to fix the issue. so thats what im doing. yay! i dont know if anyone cares but i care so fuck off